Overcoming your fears

Saturday 29 February 2020 - 16:45 - Charles de Gaulle Airport

I hadn't planned to talk about this in the first article. But it's been on my mind for a few days now! I'm about to cross the globe for the trip I've been looking forward to more than anything else all my life! The question is: is it difficult to make your dreams come true?

Answer: Overcoming your fears!

It's the only thing that stops us. When I was 12 years old, I used to say to myself "it would be cool if I went to New Zealand when I grew up". Then just afterwards I thought "I'm afraid I'll never have enough money to do that".

You become an adult. You work. You earn a living. Then the fears come back, the reasons why we don't make our dreams come true. I can't afford it ... it's madness! It's not the right time! Then comes everyone's primary fear: I'm afraid of flying. Shit, we've got two planes to catch! 7 hours to Dubai and 16 hours to Auckland! No way!

Normally my fears stop there. I'm overcoming them! What about money? Well, you just have to live differently. Consume differently. Not buying frivolous things, eating differently (and better), depriving yourself a bit, of course! No restaurants for me for a few months now, no drinks at the bar with friends, no cinema, no buying video games and CDs and books galore like before. Changing priorities. Of course, I live alone and I'm talking about my experience. I understand that when you have children everything is different.

Of course there's another parameter: luck. Yes, luck is important in life! It's at this point in the article that I say a huge thank you to my cousin Emilie, who has enabled me to go away at a price that's "lower than reality". How can I ever thank you! <3 (If you were here, I can already hear you saying "wait, you haven't arrived yet!) LOL and it's true....

Then came the fear of flying! Come on, I've taken it more than once and everything went fine! My little lithotherapy stone saleswoman said to me a week ago, "You could walk out of my shop and get run over by a car on the pedestrian crossing!" and it's so true! It's at times like this that I become aware of a fear that makes no sense!

Once again, we can stop there in terms of fear? No?

Well no! The corona virus! Fucking hell! Here I am, crossing the globe with a new virus that's spreading panic on every continent! The look on some people's faces when you tell them for the last few days that you're going .... all over the place... Wear a mask? Wash your hands? Every 5 minutes? Yeah.... makes you paranoid and that's a bit beyond me. I'm travelling alone (all the way to Auckland), so I'm bound to be a bit stressed about the timetable, the suitcase, the plane.... and now you've added the coronavirus.

Come on! Are we going to go on with this nonsense or not? Terrorist attack? Lost suitcase? Mugging? Theft of my papers? Illness? Breaking my leg on the escalators! MDR MDR

All that to say that there are thousands of fears and reasons not to leave. And this Corona virus is just another statistic in all that. I don't know what the future holds, but I'm overcoming my fears. And I'm scared as I write these words - I can't wait to get there and say "this is it! My stomach's in knots but there's no stopping me! I'm going for it! I live.

Most of the time we don't do what we want deep down, we don't listen to our soul because of our fears. That's all there is to it. There's nothing else. I spend my life overcoming that. And today was the best time to talk to you about it!

I'm going to try not to be paranoid, to smile at people, even in the lift with all those masked people... and me putting on my scarf as a mask in "just in case" mode lol Because we're losing our humanity a bit, I think, right now with this corona story. Every day people give each other colds, and we don't look at each other sideways. Today we look at each other sideways. We're inflating our egos... too much. He can catch it, I can't.... and we don't care. It's good to realise that. Well, I'm here with my fine words, but I'm not here to hug the Italians and Chinese around me in this airport either. LOL But I'm just aware of the way the people around me look at me. And when you travel alone you have time to see that.

I keep a positive attitude. No matter what. My fears I look at a bit sideways, I don't pay attention to them, and they'll disappear in the end. Don't give them any importance. By force, as if it were someone. An inner monster that is none other than the mind.

Now it's time to drop off the suitcase and off we go! It seems I have a date with life!

And if the plane crashes and/or I get the corona virus (if I get both, I'm really out of luck! Mdr) you can rest assured that I won't regret a thing. And as my gradient angels are here, that won't happen. :)

And then there's perhaps destiny? A man died last week because a tree fell on his car. What statistic was present at that precise moment for it to happen just then? Sometimes I believe in destiny...

To find out about the New Zealand journey that awaits me, click here.

And what about you? When do you realise your dreams? What are they? I hope to hear from you soon!